New?

Funnily enough, not much has changed in the past few months.
Only thing new is that I've cut myself off from facebook. Which is a good thing, since I've never been that person who has lots of "friends"; and this break has given me clarity as to my view on "friends". I've realized that I'm not actually a social person as I've tried to make myself out to be. The feeling of seclusion is a more comfortable to me than being surrounded by people.
Don't think that I'm trying to make myself a hermit due to lack of friends.... It's just that over the past two years I've come to know myself and how I am around people. I've lost many great friends over the silliest things. And it's heartbreaking to lose contact with wonderful people; but I've come to realize exactly why these falling-outs happen. The reason is that I won't care for bullshit and emotional dramas.
Sure, I've been called selfish and a bitch plenty of times, and I've cried every single time. Now I've realized that it's for the better in the end. Because I've been told countless times that I let people take advantage of me, and that I carry other peoples emotional baggage for them. After a while people tend to get used to it and keep adding on and on to this strain until it finally breaks mind and spirit. Then I make snide remarks which in turn, turns it all into emotional hell.

Safe to say, I'm sick of people treating me like that; and sick of people in general.
So that is why I'm a "hermit" now.
(And I deleted facebook because I don't want my "friends" to remind me that I'm a "hermit".)